went to ngee ann poly to meet darl..
i wore ite's pt t-shirt..
and it wrote..... "Loser"
Its like everyone's staring at my shirt..then at me.. thanks..
"what's that ite guy doing here"
"hey look, there's someone in ite uniform"
"loser"
"hoei~ intruder"
ahha.. i dint really feel bad inside there tho everyone was looking at me.
honestly.. im proud of my school
well of cus in ite.. there's its positive and negetive pts..
when i arrived back home i thought..
i could do as gd i know..
i'll go to poly as soon as i complete my ite's course..
i'll get a 3 pt gpa at least..
back at ngee ann poly.. while waiting for darling to be dismissed..
i sat at the administration office.. thn had a chat with this nice front desk auntie.
she told me the things i have to do in order to get in..
i felt rather disappointed..
getting a 3 pt does not gurantee you a pass to study in polytechnics
she says.. 3.5 and above.. many people..
and i asked if i could be eligible for banking and finace..
"no, even a 3.5 might be difficult to get into that course. normally candidates here are selected thru access of their O'levels results."
i was thinking.. fuck that duh~
i could choose a few other courses.. but there's nothing to my interests..
clement says i could take something related and later carry on my degree at SIM or what.. banking and finance..
what if i dont pass?
what am i going to be next time.
i want to work in banks..
i want to be like my friend moon..
i want to meet important people..
to be given the responsiblity to handle large amount of credits..
to get good pay checks..
to spend good days with honey..
will these two years i chose to spend in ite come to a waste
or will it be a step further in our life.
God i pray.
altho i've not been worshipping in church anymore..
i pray u'll forgive our sinnings
and see me work hard help me move on further from here..
Amen.
pauL-
x.X"
