pauL- hunn
ITE doesn't mean loser..
people out there may have look down on ite peeps.. but we shouldn't give up on oneself when others bring us down.. if it is so.. it'll really be It's The End.. why not make it better? It's To Endeavour.. what does it mean..? it means to strive, to try, to attempt, whatever.. it's already quite nice of the school to take us in and to endue us with better skills.. i've been in your shoes way before you do.. yes.. everyone is staring.. i feel small.. people despising us, dun have say it out.. but just them look at you from top to toe, one will know.. the feeling wasn't nice.. the way they look at you, wasn't as friendly.. i understand..
loser...
what have you lose really..? if you haven't finished the lap you are running currently.. how do you gauge you've lost the race..? have the perserverance and determination to finish everything.. better results you will get as compared to results without striving harder and having the "sure-die" mindset..
lovELY
went to ngee ann poly to meet darl..
i wore ite's pt t-shirt..
and it wrote..... "Loser"
Its like everyone's staring at my shirt..then at me.. thanks..
"what's that ite guy doing here"
"hey look, there's someone in ite uniform"
"loser"
"hoei~ intruder"
ahha.. i dint really feel bad inside there tho everyone was looking at me.
honestly.. im proud of my school
well of cus in ite.. there's its positive and negetive pts..
when i arrived back home i thought..
i could do as gd i know..
i'll go to poly as soon as i complete my ite's course..
i'll get a 3 pt gpa at least..
back at ngee ann poly.. while waiting for darling to be dismissed..
i sat at the administration office.. thn had a chat with this nice front desk auntie.
she told me the things i have to do in order to get in..
i felt rather disappointed..
getting a 3 pt does not gurantee you a pass to study in polytechnics
she says.. 3.5 and above.. many people..
and i asked if i could be eligible for banking and finace..
"no, even a 3.5 might be difficult to get into that course. normally candidates here are selected thru access of their O'levels results."
i was thinking.. fuck that duh~
i could choose a few other courses.. but there's nothing to my interests..
clement says i could take something related and later carry on my degree at SIM or what.. banking and finance..
what if i dont pass?
what am i going to be next time.
i want to work in banks..
i want to be like my friend moon..
i want to meet important people..
to be given the responsiblity to handle large amount of credits..
to get good pay checks..
to spend good days with honey..
will these two years i chose to spend in ite come to a waste
or will it be a step further in our life.
God i pray.
altho i've not been worshipping in church anymore..
i pray u'll forgive our sinnings
and see me work hard help me move on further from here..
Amen.
pauL-
x.X"
