Untitled. Lost. ;Without hope`

Thursday, March 16, 2006

first.. its my mother..
what she said tt day frm the car when i was at the bus stop..

it hit me real hard.. each sentence each word.. they came piercing rite into my heart..
isit becuz again.. she saw me with my girlfriend or smt?
i mean what she say does'nt really make any sense..
did she say things to upset me in frnt of my girlfriend or smt??

my mother to me..
now's (well long ago).. she's like a monster trying to break me apart from all reasons that made me happy..

yes i do want a smooth life in future.. and im trying.. but does she understand that
without this love
it could'nt possibly make anything better in my life..

everything i treasure.. u try coming between my thoughts..
i wanna say "fuck bitch," so much..
but what do i say when you're MY MOTHER?~
what do parents really want..

you were insulted by some assholes on net..
i tried standing up for you all..
this's the first time..
but instead i got some discipline talks from u early in the morning.

"don't care what others say?"
"he might not be refering to me?"
Fuck that~ he's obviously refering to me!
he's pointing to u and dad.. shit

yes maybe i dont respect u..
oh yes i dont really call u and HIM when u guys get home..

maybe if dad and u come home tgt one day again.. i will call..

does anyone knows how does it feels to have a family
and he himself does'nt feels like he's in it?~

does anyone know.. what its like and how it really feels to hate your own mum?
u think i want it mum?
u think i like it?
but for all who goes against my thoughts im still saying the same..
fuck off..
please understand..
im sorry..

i know whats good for myself too.. in my way.. in my eyes in what i see.. in a way
that it is
my wish..

i love u mum..

10:19 PM;
I made my ~~mark~~

E.l.y.n.a.p.a.u.l.

pauL

DOB: 28th July 1988
School: ITE College West
Occupation: hireD to be Ely's round the clock hunnie!

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